I didn’t go Zumba to get the endorphins going. I instead ran a few errands, came home to spend time with my daughter and cooked us a very healthy meal. I was a little afraid that I was going to unravel; however I did not. It was as if I had dodged a bullet. I am not sure if I was anticipating PMDD out of fear or habit, but I definitely was feeling edgy and then I realized that I might just be tired. I began to ponder that while petting Shanti, my very zen orange cat. Oh wow! What a concept! To just feel a little tired before my cycle like most women. To be tired because I’ve been super busy at work and more socially active than usual is such a better position to be in than PMDD any day of the month. Wow… I can’t help but to add another wow. I had a break through!
So grateful, perhaps all of the lifestyle adjustments I’ve been practicing are actually working. From my working out coupled with the healthy eating, to the meditation and rest (not this week). Perhaps there is a little residual? I don’t know, but I’ll take it. I believe that everything we do on a daily basis adds to the sum of our entirety. Bit by bit we grow beyond ourselves when we take care. I’ve begun to love myself more than I believe I ever have. I have a new found respect for my body and spirit. If I am good to myself, I feel good about myself. What a simple realization!
Not every day is perfect, but I don’t have to beat myself up when I am having a bad day. I wouldn’t turn my back on a friend if they were in a rough patch. I would be compassionate and lend them an ear and some time. I realize that I have to treat myself with the same values. I deserve self-care and the light of love. From this newfound gem of wisdom I’ve discovered that I truly do love myself, I am honoring myself and I am being #decidedlysane.
My silver lining in PMDD is the self-care and love.