until the next year of my journey begins. A continuation of all the elements I’ve set in place for self-care. I can no longer live the way I lived at the height of my PMDD. I am a pillar of strength and am adamant about not being taken down again.
I’ll say it as many times as it takes for me to remember. PMDD wants me to isolate, become indifferent and ultimately hate myself with whatever shred of emotion left in me. I’ve lost my self-confidence, believed that I created wreckage in the wake of my PMDD episodes and really acted my way out of a life that I had worked so hard to build. In hindsight, had I known as much about my affliction then as I do now, I would have sought help beyond Prozac. At least I would like to think that is my truth.
I am turning a year older having embraced a healthy lifestyle. I have connections with family that is for the most part healthy, a wealth of healthy friendships and a partner that has proven to me that she IS my advocate. I am truly blessed and beyond sitting around waiting for the next PMDD to take me over. I am alive and honored to be able to have this voice to share my experience with the PMDD community.
As for why I think I am where I am, well I’ve decided that I would be sane and healthy one action at a time. If I continue to take simple steps of self-care, I will be able to get through my darkest hours. We can all do this. Everyone’s self-care ritual is different, but I can honestly say that eating healthy, exercising and rest are the 3 basic habits that are keeping me on track. Anything else is extra.
Be love be light. I look forward to another year of amazing!