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Inconsolable

slipping in and out of

Rage

Sifting through the creases of my mind

for semblance

Dismantling relationships

Watching

Attention

Tension

Cannot connect

Speak

Feel

Is this my vice?

The very thing that holds me together

is ill fitting

Tight

10 extra lbs

10 days

Truly

uncomfortable in my own skin

Need space away

my body… too much

Spilling over

Tears

Words

No words

Sleep

No sleep

Between me

Myself

my Non-PMDD self

my PMDD self

is dark as self-loathing is deep and insurmountable.

 I wish it would

Go

Away

Split

Find me

See me

Hug me

Please

I need to

see

feel

be

me

again

Too much

Rage

a need

I need

space

to sit still

until i bleed again . . .